Category : Exercise

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I know I have said all the right things in my previous posts as I really do mean them, but I haven’t been honest with myself totally. You see all of the things I have said that I will do, all of the things that I shared I have done are true, but at a very highly inconsistent level.  I have yet to commit to eating healthy and exercising consistently. To be honest, it bothers me too.  Why? Why can’t I just commit to doing something that serves me right in the present and for the future? I am obese, overweight and if I continue down this road it can get really ugly for me.  I do not want this to happen.  I want to get to where I am consistent and build from there.  I know deep down I truly want to live a happy and healthy life, but my actions are not matching that desire.  And it has to if I am ever going to reach the goals I have set for myself, my weight and my eating habits.

I see people all the time reaching their weight loss goals as I sift through my instagram feed, read through blogs and even I know some people personally that have done it.  I still do not fully understand what it is that is keeping me from latching on and following through so that I too may have the success that I see so many have. It is all very frustrating and at times can be demoralizing that I am still in the place I was, saying I will do this and that, yet not gaining much traction.  What will it take? When will I get it and then work hard to achieve the weight loss goals I set for myself?  Honestly, there is NOTHING that is keeping me from reaching my goals, but me and that kills me deep inside.  KILLS ME!  I am tired of being that person that helps others very much but can’t seem to help myself even when my life can depend on it.  It hurts and I sometimes find myself speechless or not knowing what to do so that I can get on track and stay there.  I just don’t know.

But one thing is for certain, I WILL NOT QUIT! I WILL NOT GIVE UP! I say that and feel that with the notion of believing that one day I will do exactly what I said I would do.  I will eat healthy and I will exercise daily.  I believe that and I have to start somewhere.  So here’s to a great start to the week tomorrow. My plan is to go MASTER MONDAY… I pray!

I will blog tomorrow on my plan to get me back on track and how I will stay on track.

Until I blog again,

I am finally not sick any more which means that I can go back to the gym in the morning.  Yessssss!

I was down for twelve days where the illness won.  I had one ER visit, one doctor visit and five medicines prescribed. Sickness, you won that round.  However, there are several more rounds to go and I will do everything I can to win those.

I am really ready to get back into my workout routine and eating routine. When you are sick, unfortunately, you get away from the routine you were in while fighting to beat the illness.  I know I will have to start small again and work my way back up to where I was before the illness.  I am so okay with that. I just want to get started.

I am going to the gym in the morning for a 5am workout.  I find that if I get a solid workout done in the mornings, then the rest of the day I can solely focus on what I put in my body to fuel it.  I also find that I do not use excuse of being tired after work as to why I didn’t go for a workout. Reprogramming myself to wake up early again will be a task, but it is definitely something I will get done. The plan is to get some cardio in and if time permits, I will do some resistant training on arms. My gym bag is packed and I am ready to hit the floor running, so I better get ready to go to bed so that I am able to wake up. Looking forward to the exercising tomorrow.

Until I blog again,